Mama and the Dentist

Yesterday Mama had to go to the Dentist. She was having some pain on the top right and it needed to be looked at. We did x-rays and cleaning (with a soft toothbrush) and then the extractions. Mama got the nitrous and she quickly fell fast asleep. She slept thru the entire procedure. Afterwards we had a really hard time getting her to wake up even with the O2 on her. She is such a trooper even with Alzheimers, she is Amazing Grace. When I took her back to Silvercrest and we got her in bed I did not want to leave. There was MY Mama and in pain of sorts at least in my mind and needing recovery help. Could I trust thee folks to take care of her and love her thru all of this? It was so so so hard to get in the car and leave her there. I wanted to bring her home so I could tend to and Dr. her back to health myself. But I didn't. I left and went home feeling like a whipd puppy. I called twice last night and the first call was ...no, we don't know anything about her antiobiotics and needing them tonite. That was a long phone call and finally little Ashley the 500 hall nurse got in her own car and drove to Walgreens to get the meds for Mama. God please bless Ashley today in a special way. Anyway I called back 2 hrs later and Ashley told me that they got one out of the 4 pills into her. So here we stand, out of the 4 pills tried yesterday morning and the 4 last night we managed to get 2 into her which is a half a dose. I just pray that will be enough and that she will not get an infection. I thanked Ashley profusely. I called again this morning at 8:30. She is up and about and eating some breakfast now. My dear sweet Peggy went and checked on her and called to tell me she seems ok. Peggy was running an errand and will stop back about 9ish to spend some time with her and try to get some tylenol in her. She refused her meds again this morning. I wwish she would take her meds I wish she couldunderstand how important this is each day, but the understanding is gone. I just want to bring her home and take care of her here with me. My life is so up and down and we don't even know if we are staying in this house past January. Oh Mama I just miss you and just wish things could be different. I wish the kids were on there own, I wish we only had one dog and the cats, I wish I could tuck you in to bed everynight and then see you every morning to say my ususal"hello beautiful" when I am waking you up. The holidays are almost here and you are not. Yesterday you kept telling me all day long"I love you" and I kept telling you back "Mama I love you too". I was exhausted last night and fell into a fitfull sleep after my last Ashley phone call. Today I am still exhausted and long to just be with you and make sure you are ok and make sure you take your pills and rinse with warm salt water. I long. I have to go to the kitchen instead to the mounds of pots and pans and the rigerous work and the non stop moving. I love you too Mama. Dear God, You know my heart and you know how much I miss my Mama. Please take care of her today and for all the days she has left with us. Amen