Sisters

Wow! I cannot believe the different thoughts this one word brings up for me. Just the very word brings several thoughts and emotions. One..always there, rock solid, lots of knowledge. The other..un-resolved differences, not available physically and sometimes even mentally. Sister number 1 is Rachel and sister #2 is Rebecca. It is wierd how we all share the same parents and the same blood but how we are so very different. It is also strange how we can be apart for so many years and then clear the air and pick-up where we left off with of course new ground rules and boundaries. In the past I could always tell sister #1 how I really felt about Mom and the feelings I had inside. I decided a few months ago to stop this as I could tell this was very depressing for her. So I put on my almost happy face and now only tell her the good stuff. She is much better this way ad I cope with how I really feel. Being the primary care giver and over seeer is very difficult at times. Each and everything about Mom has to be thought out and expanded on, turned backwards and forwards then around and around. I always pray and ask God to help me make the right decisions for Mom. Then I do all the second guessing of it all. Sister #2 has recently returned to my life via of all things (facebook). However it was done is no matter the good part is that it has been done. We talk alot and she calls me quite frequently and emails daily. She has given me some ideas for Mom and listens. We have discussed Mom and her feelings toward her and it is so good to know that she has forgiven Mom for all the times she was so mean to her. She calls her Mom now and even has told me she loves her. As of late she has taken up sending Mom pretty cards thru the mail. Mom just loves to get mail or at least she use too now I do not know, but she loves to hold on to things. I am glad I have both sisters in my life and I continue to pray that God will make a way for them to reconsile to each other and become friends again. All things in his time.