Friday

This week has gone by incredibly fast. Each day I watch my hands get more red and sore. I am keeping my focus tho on why I am even at this job. I bought myself a pair of gloves that Annie suggested this week. I will try them out starting Momday and see if it will make a difference. I finished part one of Lew's project on Thursday. Once I got going it was really easy, however i did have to really concentrate on it. I really need some new glasses as I can hardly see out of my current prescription. It's funny how things change. I use to go faithfully each year to the opt. Now as I have to pay for most of it I go maybe every 3 years, not good I know.
I went to see Mom today and we had a great visit. I had called this morning and instructed the floor nurse to not give her the noon pill. I told her that since they had changed it from 25 to 50 mg she is really hard to wake up when I come to visit. I did not notice it before returning to work as I always went in the mornings. Since I now get there about 2:00 I have seen the difference. Today I took Mom to Walmart to just go and get about 4 items we needed at home. She did very well and I was very mindful to not walk her around too much. She had the best time talking to everyone's baby! That's my Mama and that is where I got it from too. When we returned she wanted to stop at the first visiting room to sit and visit. This was strange because she al;ways likes the other room. I figured out that she was just tired from the little trip that we took to the store. I noticed that Dr. Christopher was at the desk so I got Mom settled and went to talk to her abput the noon pill. I told her about Mom reaching out and grabbing at things that were not there and of the snake and spider episode. She told me that those are delusions that can be brought on with Mom's condition and the medicine she is on. I told her about the excessive sleepiness and hard to awaken in the afternoons. She decided to change her back for 2 weeks to the 25mg of seroquel and we will see how she does. She was put on that a few months ago as she was agitated in the afternoons and one day slapped a CNA and a resident. So lets hope she can stay happy and not start hitting again.
I thought today again about Mom being with me or the Rach. She has slowed down so much but I still can see Mom in there and especially when she is not on the higher dose of the seraquel. I wish she could be with a family member and then other times I am glad she is close to me. I still wonder about the quality of life she has at Silvercrest vs. a real home with family members around. I wonder what she would be like if she did not take the noon seraquel. I trust Dr. Christopher and I know she really cares about my Mama. She has a Mama in the other place in CV with similar problems as Mom so today we discussed being on the other end. She is very open and I know she hurts at times too for her Mother in law. We will press on. I did call to talk to Rach today and left a message but she was out and about. I hope she had a fun day and is happy. I am glad she has a man who loves her so supremely. She is a very lucky woman. Dear God, Please let Mama stay in a happy, non-aggressive state so she can have a lower dose of meds in the afternoon and please keep her safe and healthy.